Brain. Tired.

This morning, I left my apartment. I walked down the stairs, into the courtyard and realized my load felt a little light.  I had my tote bag with my lunch and my morning protein shake in my hand, but something was missing. Sigh…my purse. I kind of need that.  I turn around, walk back up the flight of stairs, open the door, find that it is indeed still exactly where I keep it so I won’t forget it before I leave in the morning, grab it, and am on my way once again. I think to myself, it was dark, I just didn’t see it. Move on.

I am half way down the stairs when my stomach seizes again. Shit! I also forgot the monkey’s paperwork for the new school year, which I wanted to fill out during my lunch hour. Frack! Back up the stairs again, open the door, walk through the kitchen to the dining room table where I knew it was, grab it, shove it in the tote and back out the door I go. On my way once again.

As I walked down the stairs, for the third time this morning, I started to wonder, am I losing my shit? Or is it just there are so many things in my brain to remember that certain things just get lost? I can understand sometimes when it’s myself and Maya to get out the door, and I do things like …forget her lunch because it was on the floor instead of on the table where I usually put items to take before we go. Or I didn’t see it because it was dark. Or am I already getting to the age where I need to have post-its all over the house so I can remember stuff?

My Grandma Marilyn used to keep lists by her telephone.  When we went over to visit, she would always have to consult her little white pad of paper with the lists on it because she would write down things she wanted to tell us, otherwise she wouldn’t forget. I chuckled at this because at the time, I couldn’t fathom having to do that. I was probably a teenager, or maybe in my early 20s at the time. As I got older, it was something I expected to do in my 60s and 70s (or even 50s perhaps), but I’m not even 40 yet.

What level of forgetfulness is acceptable at 38? Should I be worried? Or is my brain. just. so. tired. it doesn’t want to work sometimes?

Tell me, how often do you forget things?

By Joy

I'm 42, a remarried mom of an 8 year old girl and a toddler son, a teacher, and a writer. People tell me I tend to be brutally honest and ...tell it like it is, so I had hoped to use this outlet to keep me sane while I got used to my new life as a stay-at-home Mom back when I was home with my worked. And it's been therapeutic through the end of a marriage and the emergence of me...


    1. Pfffft. Yes, we’ve talked about your forgetfulness, though I’ll say lately you haven’t really been forgetful, not at least that I’ve noticed!

  1. No Joy. It happens. Even at 38. It’s kind of like the beginning of stuff. Like when you sit on the floor and have to think about it for a minute before you get up. Or when you get out of bed in the morning and for a few steps, you feel like the Tin Man in the Wizard of Oz in need of an oil can.

    1. The beginning…of the decline LOL I think I better do those Lumosity games on the app I downloaded months ago. Keep the gray matter working well into the twilight years.

  2. For work-related stuff, I wouldn’t remember a thing if it weren’t for Outlook reminders on a daily basis and post-its all over my desk plus a giant white board with multicolored notes. At home, I forget things everyday – my lunch, or call the lawn guy or the fence guy, or the milk at the grocery store (just remembered I have to add that to the list). You are not alone in this daily struggle, I promise 🙂

    1. I’m a reminder and post-it queen at work too! Glad I am not alone. 🙂 And wow, it’s been 2 months…I owe you an email!

  3. It only gets worse! I think it IS because you just have so many things on your mind that you can’t keep them all there.

    1. I need to work on not keeping things in my mind when they don’t need to be there. Meditation helps, though I haven’t done it since early this week!

  4. Every night before bed I put my schlep bag out with non-perishables inside. In the morning I take my water, breakfast and lunch from fridge and throw them in the bag too while I wait for coffee. That’s my one and only chance. If I go upstairs to get ready for work and remember I need to bring in some paperwork that I’ve left on the counter I need to go RIGHT THEN and put it with my bag. Otherwise I will always forget it. I’m in my early 50’s so maybe it’s an age thing. I worry when I forget things but my bf assures me I forget the stuff that’s not important or a life changer. I hope he’s right!

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